Saturday, January 28, 2006 Y 2:18 PM
really wan 2 cry out loud tellin u tat i cant 4get u... i wan u 2 noe tat i still luv u... i really cant 4get u... ytd when i heard smth happen durin our pri sch daes... mi was heart broken... noein tat u was wif another ger durin tat time... i was so sad... wo de xin hao suan wor... nvm i wan 2 mak wishes lor... really hope tat u will cum back 2 mi... ya... tis yr really jia you wor... HE oso mus jia you lor... band oso mus jia you lor... haha... i hate tis word-dunno alotz lor... everytime tok 2 u confirm gt tis word de lor... all u sae 2 mi izit dunno? ur dunnos mak mi veri sad lor... zuo yi bu suan yi bu... tis sentence u 4gotten le ma? i hope nt... u r special 2 mi... i miss in every way... i really luv u alotz... e way u treat mi... i experience it already n i m veri thankful of it... mayb if i let u go i will more happy n mayb if we bcum frenz we b more happy lor after all... m i rite 2 tink tis way? 4gettin HIM is so hard lor... y do i oni feel tis way 4 HIM lor... y feelin cnt b control so easy de lor... if ppl can do it y cant i? i can de... ya? haha... is so sian lor... hope tat u will b veri happy lor... wo hai shi wo xiang nian ni...life seems so sad lor... ya... i dunno when tis happen lor... ai yo... sumtimes i even tink of him... y?i wun wan 2 b wif him again le... but... i dunno lei... i oni luv HIM lor... sum ppl sae i hav feelin 4 him... but i dun tink so lei... ya watever e case is... i oni luv HIM nt him le... so hope tat soon i dun feel anythin le... tat's e best ba...ya watever e case is tis yr o levels le... cnt play le... wan go jc or poly lei? if jc which jc? if poly sp or np? wat course? ai yo so ma fan de lor... haha... tink n tink lor... hope tat i can live in a stress-free de life... best man dun nd 2 fan wat 2 do lor... life can b a veri ma fan de ting lor... haha...k la is chinese new yr eve man mus kai kai xin xin de guo xin nian lor... haha... xin de yi nian lai le... bu yao zai bu gao xin le... xin de yi nian yi ding hui you xin de kai shi de wor... haha... => da jia yi ding yao kai kai xin xin de wor... haha... xin nian kuai le wor... happy chinese new yr 2 all... left her words here
Thursday, January 26, 2006 Y 9:55 PM
haha long time no update le hor... i jus miss HIM alot lor... can i hav u back? it been so long since i last saw u... zai jian qiang hou bu ting xiang zhe ta... i cant get over u... perhaps is a mistak tat i fall 4 u lor... izit? i dunno... i hope tat i can b strong again lor... i miss u badly... i hope 2 c u tml lor... can i? dun tink so ba... but after all i m glad tat u were part of mi life b4... is beta den nth at all... hao xi wang ni hui zai shi wo de... i wan 2 c u... i really wan 2... nv luv a guy so much... y lyk tat? it tak a few mins 2 lyk sum1 but a few yrs 2 4get sum1 tat u luv so much... izit we r nt meant 4 each other lor... really miss e times bein wif u... i hope tat we can b lyk wat we r in e past lor... wo zhen de hao xiang ni... will u cum back... i miss chattin wif u oso lor... thanks 4 all e tings tat u hav given mi in e past... i m veri thankful of it...anyway i m back 2 gd terms wif him le... haha... we tok le but lyk 2 bully mi lor...=<>left her words here
Monday, January 16, 2006 Y 7:58 PM
haha i m so happie 2dae nt coz of HIM but is coz i pass mi de a maths lor... haha gd rite... dun hav 2 drop a maths le lor... yupee... => haha so happie... but if he were 2 cum back 2 mi i will b veri happie lor... but will tat b possible ma? life can nv b e same agn le...
on sat dunno y i so bad luck kana bang by tuba lor... quite badly injured lor... summore blue-black le... n even gt a valve mark lor... haha... so sad hor... veri pain lor ... lips oso bleed lor... ai yo... ai yo... nvm la over le lor... haha...after can i 4get him ma? can i? *e sun wun shine since u went away seems lyk e rain fallin everydae* tis yr de valentine's dae i hav 2 spent it alone... no la spent it in band lor... haha... =p so sian man valentine's dae in band... nvm la at least it keeps mi company lor... haha... i jus hope tat u can go back on 27 lor... perhaps tat is goin 2 b e last time i goin 2 c u le... n oso e 6H ppl le... ya... since 10sept i nv c u le... 124daes le... 4mths n 2daes after breakup le... haha... haha noein tat u n mi nt possible le ba hor... nvm... *u were my dream my world*y u r makin mi regret bein wif u... nt HIM tat i m tokin abt but... ya... u r makin mi regret... u r makin mi 2 hate u... mus i hate u? u wan mi 2 hate till we cant even b frenz ma? i dun care hw ppl goin 2 sae wat i m saein but i jus wan 2 mak it clear... i wan 2 noe... y tings turn 2 b lyk tat lei? y? i m nt goin 2 care le... ya so all e best... hope tat u will live on veri happily even b4 u noe mi... is nice tat i once hav u in mi life... left her words here
Friday, January 13, 2006 Y 8:44 PM
tink tat i shld jus 4get HIM after all ba... but is hard... gd times dun last rite... we oni lasted 4 oni 14daes lor... so short... i noe i shld jus 4get him n get on wif life but... is hard... wat 2 do i'm jus a silly ger... wat 2 do lor... i miss u... but i really hope u can cum back lor... really... but if u cum back i wan ur heart lor... if ur heart is nt wif mi den is of no use le lor... a feelinless relationship... haha dun tink 2 far 1st la... i really miss u alot... tis yr is a tough yr lor... u jus left mi by e corner... wat can i do lor... nth... i been saein tis alot of times le... but... n u r jus avoidin mi lor... i m sick of it liao la... u 1min dun avoid e next min avoid again lor... wat can i do lor lyk tat... ai yo... wat so nice abt avoidin mi lor... msg u oso nv reply mi de... u promise 2 reply mi de... but... u sae u lettin it go! lettin go of wat? wat u wan 2 let go? let fate decide ma? wo xiang zi ji qiu zhen qiu wo yao de xin fu... xin fu is zhang wo zai zi ji de shou shang er bu shi deng dai ta de dao lai... xin fu bu hui zi ji lai de yao zi ji qiu zhen qiu de... zhe yang de xin fu cai shi zhen zheng de xin fu ma... (i hope 2 pursue mi de own happiness... happiness is in our own hands... happiness wun cum back itself by u hav 2 go pursue 4 it de... e oni happiness tat u pursue is call e real happiness...) i dunno wat i'm goin 2 do... i noe study is e most imp ting 2 do 4 nw lor... can i pass a maths? ai yo... i miss u lor... e oni ting i can do is tink of u oni lor... nth much i can sae le... jus wanna noe hw's ur life all tis...left her words here
Monday, January 09, 2006 Y 8:45 PM
i dunno y tat suddenly i wan him back 2 mi lor... i dunno y i so much wanted him back 2 mi? i miss HIM lor... i miss u n i nd u! will mi de dream cum true ma? everydae i m hopin tat u will cum back! can we b 2gether again! tat's e oni ting i hope 4 nw other den mi de a maths qualifyin test lor... 1 pt i dun wan 2 hurt ppl hu care 4 mi but e other pt i cnt deceive myself lor... wat 2 do! wo xi huan ni xi huan de hao xin ku wor... i wan 2 tok 2 u but it jus seem tat u r avoidin mi lor... wo men hui qu chong qian hao ma? if i follow mi heart wan 2 patch but would he wan ma? he wun wan de lor... i really wish tat i could hav u back... i m jus confuse lor... i hope u will cum back la... i really cnt hide anymore... i really wan u back... i noe i m silly but wat can i do lor... nth can help 2 mend our relationship liao lor... nth can b done le... i hope he can b e 1 2 mend mi de broken heart... but if were 2 lyk another ger i oso gt nth 2 sae but plz let mi... i dun wanna b e last 2 noe thru other ppl lor... mayb i shld jus 4get him since he dun care lor... every1 dun care y shld i care den? but i jus hope tat he will cum back... where gt such ting de lor... sae at 1st tot i lyk u but after all i dun lor... wat is tis lor... play wif mi de feelin meh? y m i so bad luck de? always is kana dump by guys... y lyk tat de? i jus hope tat we nv break lor... n we stay as we r... mayb after all we r jus nt meant 4 each other lor... izit? wo men hui you yuan zai yi qi ma? wo xi wang wo he ni hui you na men yi tian... na yi tian hao yao yuan wor... na yi tian hui dao lai ma? hao xin ku ar... hao xi wang ni neng gou hui dao wo de shen bian lor...n sumboby is jus so watever lor... wan 2 tok 2 him so hard de... so sarcastic summore... ppl bad mood jus wan tok tok hope u will listen but ended up i m e 1 saein sry... everytime is i at fault de... i jus oni hope tat u will treat mi as fairly as u treat other gers... y mus mi de treatment so different frm other gers de? i jus hope tat u can console mi ma! if nt jus hear wat i wan 2 sae ma! so hard ma? y mus u b so biased 2wards mi? wat did i do wrong after all? mus lyk tat treat mi? did i offended u or wat? can dun lyk tat treat mi ma? u noe y i behav lyk tis in front of u ma? coz when i c u feel lyk tokin 2 u but when i tink of u bein so bias den i m so angry le... u may sae u oso purposely de but 4 wat? u mak mi angry i mak u angry lor... or mayb u wun even care rite... i m jus nobody 2 u ma! i m invisible 2 u de wat... after u mayb tink i m jus nobody 2 u ma... but when i c u treat other gers so gd i jus feel lyk wat is tis lor... wat's ur pro i oso a ger ur fren rite... i noe u longer den they do or mayb sum may noe u longer but tat's nt e way ma... i m tryin 2 mak changes 2 mi life... giv mi time k...left her words here
Friday, January 06, 2006 Y 9:15 PM
erm dunno wat 2 update la actually lor... jus tat i m kind of worried abt mi de a maths de qualifyin lor... wat if i fail den hw lei? i dunno la if i fail i'm gone le... i cnt drop de lor a maths... recently i'm been treatin sum1 face 2 face quite coldly lor... lyk c tis person i tak it as i dunno tis person or nv c tis person lor... dunno whether e person noe ma... haha... i can chat wif u on msn on sms but nt face 2 face... but den i will b lyk tat is coz tat tis person dun treat mi as imp as any other of e frenz... wat do u tak mi 4? huh? mi dun wan 2 fight wif u or watever lor... i jus hope tat when 1dae i m nt dere 2 care 4 u den u realize it den is 2 late le ba... is nt tat i c myself so highly but den ai ya i dunno la... watever e case is rite erm jus hope tat we can b gd frenz again lyk in e past lor... i miss chattin wif u... erm abt HIM ar... jus hope tat i can get over HIM lor... or a miracle will jus happen lor... he will cum back 2 mi... but i noe it myself tat is nt possible lor... but wat 2 do... ever since 10sept i hav nv seen him again le... wan ask him go watch movie he oso dun wan... he sae tings tat i dun understand oni he noes n dun wan 2 sae... but i roughly noe wat he wan 2 sae lor... i miss u lor... y we r nt possible le lei... y we cnt b 2gether... e reason u gav mi... izit fair 2 mi ma? i really dunno wat u r tinkin abt... hope 2 c u soon but when i c u plz dun avoid mi... i will b veri sad de if u do so... when we meet up can dun try 2 treat mi lyk a stranger? u is 1 i lyk e longest treasure e most... waited so long... after 3 yrs we 2gether but go again lor... r we fated 2 b lyk tat? wo men zhen de shi you yuan wu fen ma? ai yi ge ren zhen bu rong yi... fang qi yi ge ren geng bu rong yi... wat 2 do... 4get him... wait 4 miracle? ai yo... let nature tak course ba! zou yi bu suan yi bu lor... i still rmb tis phrase... do u? u sae tis phrase 2 mi... i always mak fun of u wif tis phrase de... rmb? haha... kind of miss those times we had when we chat 4 abt 2-3hrs on e fone... ppl find it unbelieveable when they noe i chatted wif HIM they were shocked... haha... i miss u... 114daes... u left mi memories frm 1sept-14sept... thanks 4 all tis tat u hav left 4 mi... thanks 4 bein part of mi life n left mi sweet n enjoyable memories... really veri thankful of tat... all e tings u hav done 4 mi durin tat time... u really treated mi veri well... qian jiu rang wo heng dou... u r really veri gd 2 mi... u r a nice guy... but u dunno urself... after all tink is fated ba we cnt b 2gether... we cnt b wif each other durin bdaes n valentine's dae hor... memories r all tat were left 4 mi... they r sweet but sad... tink of it will smile wif tears flowin dwn mi cheeks... tink of u wif a smile... but noein tat i will nv hav u back in mi life le... cryin when i dreamt of u cumin back 2 mi when wake up havin 2 face reality... jus hope tat mi de wish will cum true which is u will cum back 2 mi lor... anyway goin 2 try mi best 2 4get... k?left her words here
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 Y 10:14 PM
erm sch reopen le lor... so sian man... ai yo anyway tis yr sec4 le lor... cnt play play arnd le... mus get in2 serious work liao le... haha dunno y when sch reopen i miss HIM lor... i dunno y... suddenly e feelin cum back so strong lor... i m suppose 2 4get him but e feelin jus cum back stronger lor... wat m i suppose to do den? n 2dae i dunno wat happen la... it seems lyk i kana planked by some frenz... ya they were nt even at tat place n when they tell mi tat they r at tat place n when i reach dere guess wat i c... nt a single deyi students dere... ya u all at dere ma... invisible wat i cnt c ma... veri fun 2 play ma... at 1st when i m walkin 2wards dere i m feelin veri weird liao le lyk i m bein planked but i chose 2 believe them tat they r nt lyin but wat a disappointment they were after all lyin 2 mi lor... if in e 1st place u dun wan mi 2 go wif u all den dun call mi 2 go la... wat is e pro lor... at 1st i dun wan go de but den gt ppl ask mi go den i go lor... go liao after all i jus wasted mi de energy mi de time lor... ao ya watever la... hw can i trust them again lei? is nt i wat lor is tat u all mak mi veri hard 2 trust u all le... i m tryin 2 change can giv mi more time ma... ya watever it is i dunno le... wat u all wan mi 2 do lei? anyway 112daes le... msg u nv reply mi de lor... i dunno la... wat u wan mi 2 do? 2dae is jus nt e dae 4 mi man... i will rmb 2dae tat tis ting happen... ya watever it is i jus hope tat i can b accepted by u all again lor... n once again b part of e grp... bein outcast e feelin is nt nice n great... k la shall jus end here lor...left her words here
Sunday, January 01, 2006 Y 10:47 PM
ya mi hor sae 4 ppl but 4get abt mi de kors... ai yo... so sry la kors... mi de kors ar... mi de fav kor is benson kor lor... he is 1 kor tat hear mi out when i had pro wif HIM he will b dere 2 hear mi out n help mi lor... so gd lor tis kor but den ltr kor oso sad liao lor... ya anyway tis kor treat mi veri gd de lor... really mi de fav kor lor... mus feel honoured hor kor... k la anyway tis person hor mus sae again de lor... sum ppl jus so kok eye lor so mus sae again lor... ya la tis chun hou ar ai yo write him hor cnt c de lor so write abt him lor... ya la nice guy la teach mi maths till wan 2 vomit lor... so sry la... ya erm lyk 1 big kor kor 2 mi really goin 2 miss u lor... as in u nt in deyi liao ma... den cnt really chat wif u le lor... coz every1 will b bz ma rite... nt oni u la lulu oso lor... will miss lulu oso lor... he will b much much more bz ba i guess... haha...erm sch reopenin soon lor... sian man when sch reopen hor tings start 2 b stressful le... band la sch work la... omg lor... so tirin de lei... haha... but i noe i can mak it de lor... n will keep mi de promise tat i will change de... change 4 e beta lor... hope tat every1 will try 2 accept mi again lor... erm ya nth much la 2dae i jus stay at hm n do hmwk la... do a math lor... n little bit e maths... haha mus really do well in a n e maths lor... cnt drop a maths lor... die die oso cnt drop if drop den i dui bu qi lulu n chun hou le lor... they teach mi till really wan vomit lor... i already disappoint them wif mi de eoy a maths paper le qualifyin exam i cnt do tis again 2 them lor... if nt i really dui bu qi them lor... i will work hard de... jia you wor... haha...anyway erm i goin 2 work extremely hard tis yr nt goin 2 laze arnd le... haha... ya jia you jia you jia you wor... haha... crazy mi lor... => n oso i'm goin 2 get over him 2 lor... can i mak it? sure can de... but is gonna b hard lor... lyk him 4 so many yrs... wan 2 let go nt ez lor... haha... tis yr valentine's dae goin 2 celebrate alone lor... haha... nvm de la hor gt so many frenz 2 celebrate wif mi ma... haha... k la stop here lor... erm cont tml lor... b4 sch start...left her words here
Y 12:49 AM
i shall start mi de entry in '06 la... haha ya '05 wasnt a really a great yr 4 mi lor... haha i dunno la jus wan gt a few wishes in mind rite nw 4 tis yr lor... 1st is tat i wan pass all mi de math de watever retest or qualifyin exams lor... 2nd perhaps is goin 2 do wif him ba... ya hope tat he will cum back 2 mi again lor... but will tat happen ma? will dere b miracle ma? haha but den in'05 i gt quite a few ppl 2 thank la... they r all veri gd 2 mi lor... when i'm dwn they r dere 4 mi lor... esp is winnie kang- mi de ma she always hear mi out de... she is oso lyk mi de advisor lor i noe i veri stubborn den sumtimes u advise till u wan vomit blood rite i'm sry abt it hor... ya she is 1 veri gd frenz 2 mi i treasure her alot lor... erm next ar danny lor... u left mi quite alot of memories lor i thank u 4 tat but den i even cry alot 4 u 2 lor... haha but u is a frenz i will rmb de ya no matter gd or bad... no matter wat u tink or sae u will always b mi de frenz... thanks 4 bein part of mi de life... lucius-lulu ar he veri gd 2 mi de lor... so gd lor... ya he is really lyk a big kor kor 2 mi lor... when i was sad he hear mi out lor n mak mi laugh all tis... he taught mi maths 2... i m veri thankful of tat... thank u... no matter wat i m nt goin 2 4get u lor... nv 4get tat u r so gd 2 mi lor... nv 4get e times we had 2gether so fun lor... chun hou ar... erm he oso veri gd 2 mi lor oso lyk another big kor kor 2 mi la lyk 2 disturb mi oso de lor... everytime chat wif him de but lately he so bz so nv chat wif him le... miss chattin wif him... haha taught mi maths oso lor... thanks lei i noe i created alot of troubles 4 u lor... i'm sry lor... anyway i'm sry 2 every1 la i created so much problems 2 u guys lor... i will try 2 change again 2 b a beta person lor... tis time i m serious abt changin lor... so wait n c k but giv mi time 2 change n plz i hope u all will understand mi lor... haha... next yr sec4 le lor mi... omg den veri soon syf lor... die la den after syf gt prelims more die den o levels die die die liao lor...(touch wood la) hope tat i will do well in all tis tings... veri stree la tis yr... haha hope tat he will cum back lor 109daes le... i noe i'm silly but tis is mi lor... i m sttill tryin 2 get over him... sry la... anyway happie new yr la... haha... gd luck lor... ya hor den i mus really thank tis person by helpin mi doin up tis blog lor... she is YVONNE lor... haha... she really help mi alot wif tis blog lor... coz i noe nth abt tis blog ma... haha... a veri big thank u 2 u la... haha... thanks man...left her words here
