Sunday, February 26, 2006 Y 9:05 PM
wun b able 2 blog veri often le lor... haha... kind of miss HIM still ba... ai yo... so sian 1 lor... mi de kor hor everytime sae wanna call mi de hor in end in nv de lei... stupid BENSON kor... kor everytime bluff mi de... angry liao la... tat dae jus pass him his belated bdae present lor... a billabong wallet sia... kor mi de bdae i oso wan billabong de wallet hor... haha... ya... m i happier? do i really look happy? mayb ba... haha i mus jia you wor... haha... 165daes le... but really i wan 2 sae is i miss HIM still lor.. e daes i stop tokin abt HIM is e dae i 4get HIM lor... so hope tat u guys will wait n c k... hope tat e dae will cum soon ba... haha... anyway fri our sch hosted e spore sec sch debatin prelimenary championship rounds... n gt alot of sch cum... alot of schs cum man... c till yan hua liao ruan lor... haha... i usher hwa chong lor... n i c a guy quite gd lookin de lor... haha... c him thruout e whole debate lor... he tok damn fast lor... quite shuai la he... haha but wun b able 2 c him again le lor... is jus a minor crush lor... haha... he look so shuai la when he debatin lor... haha... siao liao la mi... anyway is jus a crush jus 4get lor... but glad 2 c new faces lor... our sch guys ar... 4get it lor... gd 1 alrdy taken lor... sum ar... i oso dunno lei... haha... jus tak tis chance of single de... look at e world de shuai ge lor... haha... tak time 2 choose lor... choose beta guys... haha... so bad la mi... haha... sian man... jus wait ba... mi de mr rite will cum ba 1 fine dae... is jus e matter of time lor... haha... => i miss HIM still la... tings will nv b e same again le lor... tings change... as time goes by... sum1 sae tis 2 mi b4... n i will rmb de... haha... everytime i ask y tings bcum lyk tat i will always get tis reply de... "tings change as times goes by" is dere anyting tat wun change ma... esp HIS heart lor... ai yo... y mus hearts change? feelin fade? huh wat r all tis? tot i lyk u... u noe hw hurtful when i hear all tis ma... do u noe... i dunno la... i m nt e ger tat u lyk after all... but at least when u lyk sum1 plz tell mi... so tat i can 4get u le... we r jus nt meant 2 b ba... rite... 4gettin u is so hard... when i tot i 4get u but in fact i havent lor... when will i 4get u? left her words here
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 Y 5:46 PM
ai yo... i dunno wat 2 do... 4gettin sum1 i lyk 4 veri long will tak mi veri long 2 do so... it jus e matter of time oni... every1 is livin in their own life le... no1 really cares abt mi le... msg ppl oso dun reply mi de lor... wtf lor... i gt tell u b4 tat i dun lyk 2 wait 4 ppl de reply n in e end i waited 4 nth lor... did u ever care hw i feel when i waited 4 nth ma? did u... n u promise mi tat u will tell mi tat u r bz so tat i wun hav 2 wait 4 ur reply 4 nth lor... but after all e promise is jus an empty promise... u seriously jus dun care lor... watever la... everytime ask u y nv reply den u reply mi 1 msg n tat is all lor... huh ever felt hw i feel ma? HIM is lyk tat u oso lyk tat... in e past treat mi so gd but after all lyk tat... mayb after all tings jus change as time goes by... really miss e times havin u n him wif mi... but nw... u all nt wif mi le... kind of miss u guys... ever since u all nt wif mi le tings change n no1 treat mi gd but ever since u all nt wif mi u guys dun care abt mi le... miss u all by mi de side... no1 really cares 4 mi as e way u guys did... mayb u guys may tink tat u didnt do much but u guys r those hu treat mi e best after all... thanks 4 everyting tat u guys hav giv mi... i appreciate it... really thankful of wat u guys had done 4 mi...left her words here
Friday, February 17, 2006 Y 7:48 PM
wo hao xiang nian ni la... HIM is all i wan le lor 4 nw... i miss HIM lor... life is so in a mess... so much stress... i jus 2 cry out loud 2 e whole world lor... i wan 2 de-stress lor... so stress up... goin 2 break dwn le... mum keep naggin at mi when i m at hm veri early lor... tat's y i dun lyk go hm so early de... nag n nag non stop de... i hate tat lor... ai yo... ai shang ni shi wo de cuo ma? wo shi zhong bu ying gai ai shang ni... missin HIM so badly lor... i noe tat in my life nv will i hav HIM back again le... we r history le... mi n HIM no future de rite... but a little hope keeps mi waitin 4 HIM... i dunno y inside mi i still hav a little hope 4 HIM lor... y? y do i feel tat way? tings will nv b e same as it was lyk in e past lor... live in e future but nt in e past lor... can i mak it de ma? HIM is all i tink of... 156daes le... ai yo... life is jus lyk a puzzles lor... we hav 2 solve all e puzzles in order 2 find e real meanin of our life... solvin e puzzles in our lives is nt easy... i dunno wat 2 sae le... all i wan 2 sae is i wan HIM back lor... luv HIM alot lor... wo hao ai hao ai ni... really hope 2 hav u back lor...
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Thursday, February 16, 2006 Y 10:11 PM
i m lyk so sian lor... haha... 2dae in band ar... dunno wat happen 2 mi lor... gt breathin pro lor... ai yo... so wat lor... HK non stop sia... den nv coordinate wif e marchin in e end lyk tat lor... cnt breathe properly... ai yo... hw cum lyk tat lei? 1st time lor... y i so weak de nwadaes... ai yo... i cnt b so weak de... 2dae i nv do veri well in band lor... mi de performance 2dae is veri sucky lor... is sucks alot man... i dunno la... i jus feel lyk givin up everyting lor... jus giv up all e tings... jus wish tat i can hack care everyting lor... tings will nv ever b e same again le lor... life hav bcum so complicated le... y? wat happen den? i dunno la... i hate e 1 i m nw... i hate 4 bein hu i m nw lor... treat mi so gd after all is jus wat i tink but is nt e truth or e fact... after all every1 hav 2 learn hw 2 stand on thier own... i been too dependant on ppl le... but wat 2 do den? i hate mi life... i hate everyting... i jus hope tat everyting will jus b e same as e past lyk it is meant 2 b... hopin tat nth had ever change... y mus ting change as time goes by? y ppl hav 2 change... even HIS heart lor... change so fast sia... 2wks... 14daes... huh? y? y ppl de heart mus change de lei? i m tired... so tired... wat can i do? wat 2 do? huh? i cant feel mi de heart le... i dunno where's mi de heart lor... i dunno where mi de heart is bringin mi 2... i feel numb... feel nth... dunno wat's e feelin of bein luv... evryting jus went back 2 square 1... 155daes le... huh? 45 more daes 200daes le... m i surpose 2 keep on waitin ma? m i? or wat? u tell mi lor... jus ignore mi... i dunno wat u r tinkin abt lor... i really hope tat i can live on happily wifout botherin abt u or waitin or watever e case is... i wan 2 excel in mi de studies lor... i wan 2 do well... i dun wan any regrets lor... but... tings isnt e way i wan it 2 b... tings change... time change ppl... every1 do change... even mi... life is so damn complicated lor... cant life b any simpler ma? xi huan ni shi yi ge cuo de xuan ze ma? havin u in mi de life was a mistak ma?! ai shang ni shi wo de cuo ma? wo bu ying gai ai shang ni de... ai shang ni zhen tong ku ar... HIM is all i tink of lor... 4gettin HIM seems so hard...*ting wun b e same anymore le**zuo yi bu suan yi bu**can i dun 4get u*left her words here
Friday, February 10, 2006 Y 8:40 PM
ya 1 period of time mi de blog cnt c ting so sry abt it hor... missin HIM alotz lor... but m i really missin HIM or wat... i dunno wat's mi de feelin nw... i m confused le... i feel numb... mayb i m bein hurt 4 2 long le... so i seriously dunno hw i feel nw... all i can sae is i still lyk HIM lor... all i can tink is zou yi bu suan yi bu... y tings hav 2 end up tis way lei? waitin 4 a miracle 2 happen... will it happen? i dunno either den... hu noes den? mayb after all let go i will b happie lor... but sae is easlier den done... xin fu shi she me? wat is e term by happiness? mi wan HIM 2 luv mi again... a relationship tak 2 ppl in it de... wat's e use of oni 1 is alive in e relationship lei? it hurts mi so much 2 noe tat i care 4 u so much but u jus didnt care... wat 2 do lei den? ai yo... hao xiang ni... zhen de hao xiang ni... wo hao sha... all i wan is HIM n no1 else le... ai yo 150daes le... but we r still lyk tat... tink we r e zui shou xi de mo shen ren ba... 2 lyk sum1 is tak oni a few mins but it taks a few yrs 2 4get sum1 u really luv alot lor... xin fu shi yao zi ji zhen qiu de?! do miracles really happen in tis world? wo men de yuan fen jiu ting zai zhe li ma? nan dao wo men zhi ke yi zuo peng you ma? tat's all wat we r den... y life is lyk tat de... i miss n luv HIM la...2dae wear workin clothes kana suan by mi de sch guys... sae mi tis n tat lor... ai yo nearly cry lor... endure them veri long liao lor... stupid guys la... hate them disturbin mi lor... sumtimes jus wish they jus shut up n keep their comments 2 themselves lor... stupid la... ya after all 2dae is oso e release of o levels results... lulu goin jc n chun hou goin poly studyin business lor... dun 4get mi k... haha... still mus help mi maths lei... haha... miss havin u guys by mi de side lor... teachin mi a n e maths lor... i noe is hard on u guys but thanks lei... always rmb wat u guys did 4 mi... k... jia you lor u all hav different lives frm nw on le... n mi tis yr o... i will do mi de best de nt 2 disappoint u guys de... tak care lor... mus miss mi lei u all...left her words here
Monday, February 06, 2006 Y 9:59 PM
here to blog again lor... haha... miss HIM so much man... he ar omg i dunno wat to sae abt HIM lor... he is jus so insensitive de lei... wa piang really can die u noe ma... wan chat wif HIM online on MSN dunno is he nv c or wat lor... babi la... ai yo... he hor... dunno liao lei... i really miss HIM alotz alotz lor... cant help it la... wa lau... sry la 2dae i abit to vulgar le... hehe... i mean nt to e extend of scoldin f*** la... haha... mi veri guai kia de lor... haha... =p sry anyway back 2 mi de story... i noe by nw i shld hav 4get abt HIM but i cant lor... but wat 2 do lor... tis yr de valentine's dae wo jiang hui shi zi ji yi ge ren du guo de lor... i tot tat tis yr would b beta den last yr but in fact it is goin 2 b worst lor... ai to... y lyk tat lei... i dunno wat's exactly is goin on wif mi lor... i jus really hope tat e time will jus stop at tat moment... i jus hope tat nth had changed... jus hope tat tis yr is nt mi de imp yr 4 mi... i really hope 4 alot alot of tings... mi de wishlist can jus go on n on lor... n 1 of mi de wish is HIM lor... keep on dreamin of havin HIM back in mi life... when can i wake up frm mi de dreams lei? is he worth it? is he worth eveyting tat i do 4 HIM ma? all tis while wat hav i been doin lei? i dun even noe it myself... ni hai ji de wo ma? wo zi xiang yao zi ji qiu zhen qiu wo yao de xin fu... xin fu shi zai zi ji de shou li... yao zi ji qiu zhen qiu... ta shi bu hui zi ji lai de... i hav oni 2 choices nw... 4get or nt... ya... wat shld i choose den?*shld i smile coz u r my frenz or cry coz tat's all we'll b**jealous of every ger tat hav hug u coz 4 tat moment she held my entire world**my mind tells mi 2 giv up but my heart wun let mi**jus pretend 2 hav u by my side till u get here*left her words here
Friday, February 03, 2006 Y 9:10 PM
haha 2dae went 2 ngee ann poly wif ah ma(yuwen), step, minqi n sylvia lor... haha... quite fun la e open hse ting... haha... gt candy floss lor... so long time no eat it lor... haha... den we go 2 visit e sch of business n life sci cum health sci... after all sci is e most interestin lor... so fun sia... i luv it man... haha... mayb considerin 2 go poly np lor... haha... ya i saw a senior of eng drama de 2dae at np... he still doin ting related 2 drama as cca lor... gd 4 him lor... he's beta lookin nw le... haha... so shocked 2 c him lor... ai yo... i dunno y i feel so numb of mi de own feelin le... sumtimes i tat i m lyk jus clingin on2 dunno wat ting lor... i oso dunno y... HIM is all i tink of lor... really hopin tat he will cum back... wat's in mi mind? wat's wrong wif mi? ai yo... really la can i 4get him ma... ppl ask mi find new 1 but izit so easy? mi de kor can lor... but mi... nt so easy... mi de kor can do it gy oso can do it y cant i meh? i oso can de lor... rite... but i keep havin a little hope of havin him back in mi life... jus a little hope lor... but i m jus dreamin but nt facin e reality lor... him once told mi b4 tat i dun dare face reality lor... i m afraid of fallin 4 him again lei... but i cant... ai yo... if fate can brin mi n HIM 2gether again i will b veri happy le... haha => yeah!!! haha... but dun tink it will b possible le lor... ai yo ai yo ai yo so fan de lei... i luv HIM alotz la... hao xiang ta hao ai ta... miss HIM alotz... hao ai hao ai ta la...left her words here
