Monday, March 27, 2006 Y 10:05 PM
haha... 26 more daes 2 syf... haha gd or bad? i dunno... gd is i m graduatin le lor... haha... dmb all e way lei... haha... jia you... we can mak it de lor... haha... jia you jia you jia you wor... haha... mi de last yr le... sobz... ok la... but den really hope 2 win lor... i wan 2 win... if we nv win i will cry... cry lyk nobody business lor... ai yo train so hard dun win veri wasted lor...but den no matter wat i wan 2 win lor... can we? ai yo... do all e best ba... giv in e last shot lor graduates... haha... our last yr le... haha... we can mak it de...anyway dunno y 2dae tok abt HIM n him lor... ai yo... tok abt HIM ar... same la... miss e times wif HIM lor... suddenly e times wif HIM jus flashed thru mi de mind lor... y? miss HIM 2 much liao izit... i m goin 2 graduate le... frm sec sch... HIM lei oso graduatin lor... after sec sch confirm lost contact de lor... e more goin 2 miss HIM lor... ai yo... lyk tat hw... i goin poly lor... HIM lei... i noe he go poly de but which 1? will we go 2 e same poly same sch of course? i doubt so... wun hav so much qiao he de... his interest n mi de is diff lor... confirm de lor... m i tat bad after all? i dunno la... perhaps really i m tat bad lor... wat's wrong wif mi lei? i miss HIM... benson kor was rite i shld jus giv up... shld nt hav put in so much feelin in HIM lor... everyting is mi de fault k... him oso lyk tat oso mi de fault... u really confuse mi... 1 moment angry wif mi... next moment jealous... wat u wan frm mi... plz la giv mi a break la... angry la... i dun care liao la... side her 4 all i care la... i dun care le... b wif her 4 all i care lor... y mus u mak life so hard 4 mi... in wat ways hav i offended u? where? when? wat hav i done wrong... fine la u wan 2 b lyk tat den let tings b lyk tat lor... i dun owe u u dun owe mi lor... if tat's wat u wan 4 e rest of mi de life in deyi which is oni left erm 8mths+ lor... haha... i will b lyk tat if tat's wat u wan lor... 4get it liao la... u r nt worth 4 mi 2 b sad over de lor...*zuo yi bu suan yi bu**wo hao xiang ni**shi wo de cuo le ma**ai shang ni shi wo de cuo ma* left her words here
Saturday, March 25, 2006 Y 9:45 PM
ai yo... tink i really hav 2 work veri hard le lor... fail sci lor... hw 2 tak sci course in poly den if i fail sci? ai yo... mi de life... sian la... everytime msg ppl ppl nv reply mi de... dunno la... dun wanna tink so much y they nv reply le... dun reply dun lor... bz ba... haha... 2dae ar... as usual lor burn till lyk dunno wat le lor... haha... sian la mi de face hor... ai yo... anyway wanna slp early lor... veri tired la tis wk... tired till almost everydae slp in class lor... wat 2 do lyk tat... tired la... tired till ar... 2 tired le... 2 tired 2 tink of anyting else but studies le lor... really wish 2 get life sci course or business lor... but... seem so hard lor... fail sci till dunno lyk wat liao lor... hw 2 get sci? y everytime ppl dun reply mi de... wth... 4get it la i m gettin 2 use 2 it le lor... sumbody sae tat i shldnt get use 2 ppl nt treatin mi gd... but it jus seems tat every1 is lyk tat de... xi guan jiu hao... dui ma? haha... life is jus so unfair de wat... i wan 2 4get HIM... decided 2 4get HIM... can i mak it? wo jue ding yao ba ta wang le... ke shi wo zuo de dao ma? at most 4 nw till o levels finish jus put HIM aside lor... zou yi bu suan yi bu lor... everyting all o den sae ba... it's e best way out man... y mus e treatment tat i receive frm frenz mus b so differernt lei? y? i dunno n i dun wan lyk tat de treatment lor... i giv up le la... i giv up on waitin 4 ppl de reply le la... i had enough le... really... so damn fed up la... imagine waitin 4 a reply 1 whole night n e next mornin wake up after all e person nv reply at all lor... huh? wat is tis man... wat u tak mi as? hou lai de wo men you bian de zhe yang? wei lai hui shi zhe yang de? tot u will b veri different but in end u r jus e same lor... at times i jus feel lyk givin up... but wat does givin up means? i been defeated... i hav lost... i even lost e feelin of lykin sum1 of e feelin of bein lyk...2 long nv feel e feelin of luv lor... sound veri ke lian lor mi... ai yo... watever la... tis is mi... mi de feelin inside mi... but nw n den i will tink of HIM de lor... haha... mayb is jus fated tat we cnt b 2gether de lor... life is nt tat ez as wat we tink it is after all lor... but i really wan 2 cry out loud saein i miss u still... everyting seems 2 u is nth le but 2 mi... is everyting lor... memories r all tat were left 4 mi le... i m oni left wif memories of u... anyway jia you 4 ur o k... i shall sae tis... if fate really wan us 2 b 2gether after o... in poly... we will b 2gether de... if nt... i dunno... mayb lyk tat jus 4gether it liao lor... we r destined 2 b frenz oni... is our fate ba after all... or rather is mi de fate lor... e more i wan 2 let HIM go e more i dun bear... y? is been so long le but i still cant get over HIM... ai yo... y is he so special de? again i cried 4 HIM le...*dun let mi 2 b e last 2 noe u r no longer available*left her words here
Monday, March 20, 2006 Y 7:37 PM
ai yo... i cut mi de hair 2dae wa piang damn ugly la... sian u noe... lyk wat sia... china doll lor... ai yo... i dun lyk 2 b china doll la... confirm go sch kana laugh de lei... i dun lyk guys in sch 2 disturb mi de lor... is lyk wat sia... i hate it man... i m nt a toy 2 u guys k... i oso ger rite... i hav mi de own pride lor... y mus i always b e 1 givin in 2 ppl... oni few ppl giv in 2 mi... wat is tis lor... hav u guys ever tink of mi de feelin? wat ur ego... jus coz of ur ego mus cum n bully n disturb mi izit... huh? plz la... every1 hav pride de lor... i hate mi de life... esp sch life... nth interest mi le... sch life jus mean nth 2 mi le lor nw... everyting is jus so messy... life is in a mess... hu cares abt mi lor... huh? seriously nt much ppl le lor... will de oni winnie guan yi priscilla jia ping n perhaps all mi de kors... i dun care 4 ppl ppl dun care 4 mi n still expect mi 2 giv in 2 them lor... wth lor... haha... everydae hav 2 live happily... so fake... e real mi ar... mayb is at hm ba... at sch i hav 2 b happie... wat can i do? even if i m sad will e ppl in sch cares... esp e guys... they will jus disturb mi 4 all they care... cry oso mi de own pro le lor... hor... guys r ever lyk tat... guys r 4ever so insensitive de... e nerves 2 thick le la... so sick of sch life... o levels... stress la... hw is HIM doin nwadaes lei? haha... i dunno wat's goin on after all... haha... you yuan wu fen ba... we r destined 2 meet but nt fated 2 b 2gether... ya... diaos lor...tink tat's our fate ba... feelin place all rite mayb perhaps is e time nt rite ba... ya... fate wan us 2 b lyk tat den so b it ba... life cnt always b wat we wan it 2 b rite... ai yo... mayb shldnt believe in luv 2 much lor... believe 2 much more hurt felt... rite... ai yo nth 2 sae lor lyk tat... if really tat's e case lor... fate is lyk tat de... fate lyk 2 play wif ppl de...wo he ta... jiu zhe yang jie shu le... wo he ta de gu shi jiu zhe yang .. wo he ta de jie ju jiu shi zhe yang... mei you jie ju de jie ju... she me shi ai? mayb i m still 2 young 2 understand ba... haha... but 1 dae i will noe de... wat is e meanin of luv...left her words here
Saturday, March 18, 2006 Y 8:51 PM
i m finally back frm e trainin camp le... yeah... haha... so happie... mi bcum so black liao lor... so sian lei... lyk indian lyk tat lor... haha no la haha... mi wan go shoppin lei... but cnt mus chong hmwk lor... camp whole wk... cnt go out lor... sian man... i gt little feelin 4 band again le... haha... i can sae tat SYF i'm cumin le... haha... dere is a hole in mi de lip lor... so pain lor... ai yo... play trumpet oso pain eat oso pain wat can i do lor lyk tat... sian man... mi n HIM really cnt mak it liao izit... breakup 4 more den half a yr le... but it seems tat i still cnt 4get HIM lor... y mus HE b so special neh? y mus HE b e 1 tat i cnt let go de lei? y mus HE b e 1? i hav feelin 4 HIM but nt HIM lor... y mus fate b lyk tat de lei? life is jus so unfair... haha... dere's nth 4ever de in tis world rite... i miss HIM la... wat is life after all? live 4 e sake of livin or wat? live 4 wat? i dunno seriously i dunno... 185daes... wat is 185daes after all... jus numbers n numbers ma? 2 mi is a memories n feelin 2 HIM is nth... ai yo... wo hao xiang ta wor... i hav noe HIM 4 abt 6yrs le... lyk HIM so more den 4yrs... after all is jus mi alone in e relationship lor... tings wun b e same as ting change when time passes... y mus b HIM tat hurt mi o deep ar... y mus it always b HIM... after izit jus puppy luv as ppl sae... dere's no ez way out after all... jus feel lyk cryin lor nw... i feel so sad lor... abt HIM... will i ever 4get HIM or mus i find e 1 i really lyk den i will 4get HIM ar...after all those promises tat u gav mi r jus shuo shuo er yi lor... izit... i'm so disappointed... y mus it happen 2 mi? suddenly e memories seems so fresh... 186daes r nth la lyk tat... will it hit a yr? mi n HIM 2gether de times r so fresh in mi de mind... y izit lyk tat... izit e feelin is struck 4 2 long or wat? y is mi de feelin so weird? HIM? suddenly feel tat i really miss HIM alot lor... ai yo... die la... y? camp i try nt 2 tink of HIM ok mayb i did but cum back hm i tink of HIM n miss HIM so much... y lyk tat... i tink of it mi de heart is so pain lor... but after all is kind of numb le... HIM coz so much heartache 2 mi but i still lyk HIM lor... *y cant tings b e same le**y mus tings change**can time jus stop dere**can feelin dun change**dere is 4ever in e world ma**is dere miracle in tis world*e world cant b wat we wan it 2 b after all... tings change time pass life continues... hu cares when 1 is weepin? 1 is heartbroken... life carries on... life wun b e same... it cant b e same... when will miracle happen? when it really happen mayb is 2 late le ba... hearts change ppl change everyting jus change... wat's e pt of tinkin life is jus e same so sian lei? life change 4 e worst ba... 2 mi...left her words here
Sunday, March 12, 2006 Y 9:16 PM
fri we hav our ultimate deyian challenge race lor... we did e biathlon lor... is a dragon boat race n a long distance run... guess wat zeus which is mi de team mi de hse won e loweer sec gers n both upper sec gers n guys de... so cool rite... haha... i m so happie tat we won... I HAV WON LEI... haha... our team cum in 1st 4 e dragon boat race lor... gd rite... i m so happie tat i complete e race... in e end mi de hse zeus won e overall hse champion lor... haha... 4 e 1st time lor... haha... 2 happie le la... happie happie... =) anyway ytd jus went 2 haudy hse lor... actually wan bbq de but den e bbq pit cnt use den we cook... i cnt believe tat i acutually cooked lor!!! haha... seriously man... i nv do hsework at hm de lor but i go dere i did lor... omg lor... haha... sian lor... so tired lor... i learn hw 2 play mahjong lor... haha i oni game twice... sian lei... ai yo... veri lousy lor... haha... veri tirin lei... i pon tution lor... haha 4 e 1st time lei... ai yo... we watched final destination3 lor... is lyk omg so gory lor... c already hor wa so disgustin lei... ai yo... nt scary la actually...anyway i feel numb lor... i miss HIM la... i wan HIM la... ai yo... can i ever get HIM out of mi de mind ma? if i get HIM out of mi de mind i will b less stress le... so long ever since e last time i tok 2 HIM on fone le lor... i really wan 2 tok 2 HIM b4 i go 4 mi de camp lor... but is impossible 1 i noe... i can still noe wat is dream n reality lor... mayb wat i feel 4 HIM nw is a crush le... but when i tell myself tat i dun luv HIM anymore mi de heart breaks... heartache is all i feel lor... ai yo... wo hao xiang nian ni lei... mayb fate doesnt wan us 2 b 2gether ba... ai yo... shld i jus ren ming ma? or wat? i dunno la... after all shld i ren ming? ai yo... wat shld i do den? i noe i shld 4get but it jus seems so hard... so hard...*wo ai ni ke shi wo bu neng shuo chu lai**wo zi neng mo mo de an nian ni ba**ai ni ai de hao xin ku wor**ke neng wo bu yin gai ai shang ni**shi wo de cuo qiu ai shang ni ma*left her words here
Tuesday, March 07, 2006 Y 9:28 PM
can time really help in doin e healin job ma? mi de heart oni u can do e healin le... i miss u... 174daes... i noe i m silly but wat 2 do lei... studies cum 1st... but wat's e pt of studyin when we jus study 4 e sake of studyin den... ai yo... 4get it ba... nt mine will 4ever nt b mine de... mine will always b mine no matter wat... lao gong... tat is wat i use 2 call u de lor... ai yo... watever lor... tings wun b e same le... nv again will it b e same le... nv will i hav u back in mi de life le... mayb single will b beta den anyting else ba... dun giv up on fate?! every1 r changin... even mi... HIM changed le ma? bu yao shuo ni ai wo ni xiang wo ru guo ni de xin li mei you na me zuo... do miracles happen? izit true? waitin mak mi feel numb of mi de feelin lor... i dunno hw m i feelin lor nw... where's mi de heart? i dunno... is HE fine? mayb is fate tat wan us 2 b lyk tis de lor... i hav always believe tat mi n HIM gt nohappie de... nw i really agree n believe in it totally lor... i tot i cld change fate but i cant... i tot i can control mi de own fate own destiny... but i m wrong... ya really wrong lor...stop flirtin in front of mi... u tink u veri pretty meh? all u do is flirt n act cute lor... plz la... all u do is flirt wif him in front of mi... tink u veri clever meh? watever lor u... lyk him jus sae lor if u wan... i dun care le... bitch... u tink u veri gd ar... haha cum on la... u gd till where lor... omg lor... i admit tat i m more petty den u k... i admit tat... i m petty... k... watever u tink... watever u sae abt mi i dun care le.. u jus sux la... so disgustin lor... i dun care u goin 2 complain 2 e whole world abt wat i hav sae abt u... i dun care... i dun giv a damn 2 it... jus accept e fact tat u sux big time k... ppl nt scare u lor... they oni giv in 2 u oni lor... they giv u face oni la... dun b so proud lor... haha... watever la u... i hate u... i m no longer e sarah tat u noe le lor... every1 change rmb... seriously if nt 4 sum ppl u already hav no frenz le... i m speakin e truth... hu cares abt u lor... flirt wif him 4 all u wan... act cute wif him 4 all u wan... i nt goin 2 care le... wat 4 i care lor... flirt... bitch... tat's u... i dun care u goin 2 sae mi back coz e fact tat u r flirt n a bitch... dun treat mi so gd 1 min n e next cold 2 mi again lor... mak mi so sad oni... i hav 2 much scar le... dun wanna b hurt le la... is veri painful lor... it seems easy 4 u but mi lei... hav u ever tink hw i feel ma? i oso hav feelin de lor... u oso noe i veri emotional de lor but... seems 2 understand mi so much after u dun understand mi at all hao bu hao lor... u noe nth abt mi at all lor... ai yo... watever la... i m immune le... dun feel anyting le... perhaps is bcoz bein hurt way 2 much le ba... thus causin mi 2 b lyk tat lor... haha... wat 2 do... haha... time do e job... n ended up lyk tis... left her words here
Friday, March 03, 2006 Y 8:56 PM
2dae went 2 watch big momma hse 2 lor... so damn funny la... haha... went watch wif lulu lor... haha... quite fun la 2dae went out wif him... haha... i had fun wif him... i bully him he bully mi... but i bully him more lor... haha... sry... =) anyway i dunno y suddenly i miss HIM lei... i cnt help it la... everydae i at least gt 1 pro de lor... haha... so wat rite... haha... nw den i realise tat i m growin... veri soon takin mi de o liao le... i m scare lor... time passes 2 fast le...i oso dunno y i hav e fear inside mi... i m scare... i dunno y... hw's HIM doin ar? ai yo... haha... almost half a yr le... i waited 4 almost half a yr le... but... nth happen... 170daes... is e longest i hav waited lor...but izit worth it 2 wait 4 HIM ma? after 3 yrs... we cum back 2gether again lor... graduated 2oo2 lor... but 2oo5 we were 2gether again but spilt again le... sad rite... mi de life is lyk tat de... no feelin was all HE sae as a reason... no other reasons... yi bei zi xin fu de yue ding... i still luv u... but i oso hav ask myself tat whether i really still luv u ma... i hav learn my lesson le... nv 2 wait 4 ppl de reply... i gt alot of tings 2 tell u but i cant sae them out 2 u... bu yao shou ni ai wo ni xiang wo ru guo ni de xin li mei you na me zuo... i m so unhappy in band lor... band is sumwhere which is so freakin stupid lor... i dun care whether u all lyk it or nt... band sux... n dun ask mi y... e dae u found ur sum1 special is e dae i really lost u... n i will nv dream of havin u back... all i will do is 4get u bit by bit by den... but's e last ting tat i wan it 2 happen lor... i still rmb tat u sae tat u wun dun wan mi de... coz u oso luv mi... u 4gt tis le ma? 4 e 14daes u sae u luv mi... but actual u dun... i learn 2 grow up le... mi de heart hurts... i jus feel tat time jus stop... n go back 2 e date1sept 2oo5 lor... n jus stop dere... thanks 4 all e care u gav mi durin tat 14daes lor... xie xie ni de 'ai'... but i wan 2 sae is i luv u n wantin u 2 cum back... i noe u wun read mi de blog de lor... k la i end here...*wo zhen de zhen de hao ai ni*left her words here
Wednesday, March 01, 2006 Y 5:56 PM
haha... ai yo mi de studies hav been veri poor lor... mi de sci ar... cnt mak it liao la... ai yo really hav 2 work veri hard lor... haha... den abt HIM lei... i oso dunnno le... HIM ar... hw's HE lei? i dunno...HE is leadin his life i m leadin mi de life... but it seems lyk i m still livin in mi de memories ba... 4gettin HIM is nt easy... when u lyk sum1 4 veri long... so long tat it seem so hard 2 4get him le... band ar... i really hate band nw... dun ask mi y n dun bother 2 force mi 2 sae it out... it sux big time la... wa piang man... it's nv fun anymore le... every1 is puttin on tat mask 2 band lor... no1 is truthful le... hu is real hu is fake... no1 noes expect e person lor... y life hav 2 bcum lyk tat... u changed our lives... is all bcoz of u... u n nobody else... i really dunno wat 2 sae abt u le...i wan 2 add on smth which is if HE were 2 hav a stead plz tell mi can... i dun wan 2 b kept in e dark lor... i wan 2 noe... sad will b but is beta 2 find out early den late lor... wat if i happen 2 noe lei... den so nice is near o levels lei... plz dun keep mi in e dark hao ma... even if HE found his sum1 special rite... i will bless them de... cheng jing yong you is already gd enough 4 mi... when i went 2 j8 2dae n wan 2 tak bus hm i instantly tink of HIM lor... ai yo... y... hav i 4gotten HIM liao ma... when can i 4get abt HIM le...i hate myself... e 1 tat i m nw... life will nv b e same again le lor... every1 change when time pass... sum1 told mi tis... n i will rmb tis 4 life... 168daes le... *tings wun b e same anymore le...**ppl change as time passes**mayb we r nt meant 4 each other ba**cant i hav u back again ma*left her words here
