Thursday, February 16, 2006 Y 10:11 PM
i m lyk so sian lor... haha... 2dae in band ar... dunno wat happen 2 mi lor... gt breathin pro lor... ai yo... so wat lor... HK non stop sia... den nv coordinate wif e marchin in e end lyk tat lor... cnt breathe properly... ai yo... hw cum lyk tat lei? 1st time lor... y i so weak de nwadaes... ai yo... i cnt b so weak de... 2dae i nv do veri well in band lor... mi de performance 2dae is veri sucky lor... is sucks alot man... i dunno la... i jus feel lyk givin up everyting lor... jus giv up all e tings... jus wish tat i can hack care everyting lor... tings will nv ever b e same again le lor... life hav bcum so complicated le... y? wat happen den? i dunno la... i hate e 1 i m nw... i hate 4 bein hu i m nw lor... treat mi so gd after all is jus wat i tink but is nt e truth or e fact... after all every1 hav 2 learn hw 2 stand on thier own... i been too dependant on ppl le... but wat 2 do den? i hate mi life... i hate everyting... i jus hope tat everyting will jus b e same as e past lyk it is meant 2 b... hopin tat nth had ever change... y mus ting change as time goes by? y ppl hav 2 change... even HIS heart lor... change so fast sia... 2wks... 14daes... huh? y? y ppl de heart mus change de lei? i m tired... so tired... wat can i do? wat 2 do? huh? i cant feel mi de heart le... i dunno where's mi de heart lor... i dunno where mi de heart is bringin mi 2... i feel numb... feel nth... dunno wat's e feelin of bein luv... evryting jus went back 2 square 1... 155daes le... huh? 45 more daes 200daes le... m i surpose 2 keep on waitin ma? m i? or wat? u tell mi lor... jus ignore mi... i dunno wat u r tinkin abt lor... i really hope tat i can live on happily wifout botherin abt u or waitin or watever e case is... i wan 2 excel in mi de studies lor... i wan 2 do well... i dun wan any regrets lor... but... tings isnt e way i wan it 2 b... tings change... time change ppl... every1 do change... even mi... life is so damn complicated lor... cant life b any simpler ma? xi huan ni shi yi ge cuo de xuan ze ma? havin u in mi de life was a mistak ma?! ai shang ni shi wo de cuo ma? wo bu ying gai ai shang ni de... ai shang ni zhen tong ku ar... HIM is all i tink of lor... 4gettin HIM seems so hard...*ting wun b e same anymore le**zuo yi bu suan yi bu**can i dun 4get u*left her words here
