Saturday, March 25, 2006 Y 9:45 PM
ai yo... tink i really hav 2 work veri hard le lor... fail sci lor... hw 2 tak sci course in poly den if i fail sci? ai yo... mi de life... sian la... everytime msg ppl ppl nv reply mi de... dunno la... dun wanna tink so much y they nv reply le... dun reply dun lor... bz ba... haha... 2dae ar... as usual lor burn till lyk dunno wat le lor... haha... sian la mi de face hor... ai yo... anyway wanna slp early lor... veri tired la tis wk... tired till almost everydae slp in class lor... wat 2 do lyk tat... tired la... tired till ar... 2 tired le... 2 tired 2 tink of anyting else but studies le lor... really wish 2 get life sci course or business lor... but... seem so hard lor... fail sci till dunno lyk wat liao lor... hw 2 get sci? y everytime ppl dun reply mi de... wth... 4get it la i m gettin 2 use 2 it le lor... sumbody sae tat i shldnt get use 2 ppl nt treatin mi gd... but it jus seems tat every1 is lyk tat de... xi guan jiu hao... dui ma? haha... life is jus so unfair de wat... i wan 2 4get HIM... decided 2 4get HIM... can i mak it? wo jue ding yao ba ta wang le... ke shi wo zuo de dao ma? at most 4 nw till o levels finish jus put HIM aside lor... zou yi bu suan yi bu lor... everyting all o den sae ba... it's e best way out man... y mus e treatment tat i receive frm frenz mus b so differernt lei? y? i dunno n i dun wan lyk tat de treatment lor... i giv up le la... i giv up on waitin 4 ppl de reply le la... i had enough le... really... so damn fed up la... imagine waitin 4 a reply 1 whole night n e next mornin wake up after all e person nv reply at all lor... huh? wat is tis man... wat u tak mi as? hou lai de wo men you bian de zhe yang? wei lai hui shi zhe yang de? tot u will b veri different but in end u r jus e same lor... at times i jus feel lyk givin up... but wat does givin up means? i been defeated... i hav lost... i even lost e feelin of lykin sum1 of e feelin of bein lyk...2 long nv feel e feelin of luv lor... sound veri ke lian lor mi... ai yo... watever la... tis is mi... mi de feelin inside mi... but nw n den i will tink of HIM de lor... haha... mayb is jus fated tat we cnt b 2gether de lor... life is nt tat ez as wat we tink it is after all lor... but i really wan 2 cry out loud saein i miss u still... everyting seems 2 u is nth le but 2 mi... is everyting lor... memories r all tat were left 4 mi le... i m oni left wif memories of u... anyway jia you 4 ur o k... i shall sae tis... if fate really wan us 2 b 2gether after o... in poly... we will b 2gether de... if nt... i dunno... mayb lyk tat jus 4gether it liao lor... we r destined 2 b frenz oni... is our fate ba after all... or rather is mi de fate lor... e more i wan 2 let HIM go e more i dun bear... y? is been so long le but i still cant get over HIM... ai yo... y is he so special de? again i cried 4 HIM le...*dun let mi 2 b e last 2 noe u r no longer available*left her words here
