Saturday, March 18, 2006 Y 8:51 PM
i m finally back frm e trainin camp le... yeah... haha... so happie... mi bcum so black liao lor... so sian lei... lyk indian lyk tat lor... haha no la haha... mi wan go shoppin lei... but cnt mus chong hmwk lor... camp whole wk... cnt go out lor... sian man... i gt little feelin 4 band again le... haha... i can sae tat SYF i'm cumin le... haha... dere is a hole in mi de lip lor... so pain lor... ai yo... play trumpet oso pain eat oso pain wat can i do lor lyk tat... sian man... mi n HIM really cnt mak it liao izit... breakup 4 more den half a yr le... but it seems tat i still cnt 4get HIM lor... y mus HE b so special neh? y mus HE b e 1 tat i cnt let go de lei? y mus HE b e 1? i hav feelin 4 HIM but nt HIM lor... y mus fate b lyk tat de lei? life is jus so unfair... haha... dere's nth 4ever de in tis world rite... i miss HIM la... wat is life after all? live 4 e sake of livin or wat? live 4 wat? i dunno seriously i dunno... 185daes... wat is 185daes after all... jus numbers n numbers ma? 2 mi is a memories n feelin 2 HIM is nth... ai yo... wo hao xiang ta wor... i hav noe HIM 4 abt 6yrs le... lyk HIM so more den 4yrs... after all is jus mi alone in e relationship lor... tings wun b e same as ting change when time passes... y mus b HIM tat hurt mi o deep ar... y mus it always b HIM... after izit jus puppy luv as ppl sae... dere's no ez way out after all... jus feel lyk cryin lor nw... i feel so sad lor... abt HIM... will i ever 4get HIM or mus i find e 1 i really lyk den i will 4get HIM ar...after all those promises tat u gav mi r jus shuo shuo er yi lor... izit... i'm so disappointed... y mus it happen 2 mi? suddenly e memories seems so fresh... 186daes r nth la lyk tat... will it hit a yr? mi n HIM 2gether de times r so fresh in mi de mind... y izit lyk tat... izit e feelin is struck 4 2 long or wat? y is mi de feelin so weird? HIM? suddenly feel tat i really miss HIM alot lor... ai yo... die la... y? camp i try nt 2 tink of HIM ok mayb i did but cum back hm i tink of HIM n miss HIM so much... y lyk tat... i tink of it mi de heart is so pain lor... but after all is kind of numb le... HIM coz so much heartache 2 mi but i still lyk HIM lor... *y cant tings b e same le**y mus tings change**can time jus stop dere**can feelin dun change**dere is 4ever in e world ma**is dere miracle in tis world*e world cant b wat we wan it 2 b after all... tings change time pass life continues... hu cares when 1 is weepin? 1 is heartbroken... life carries on... life wun b e same... it cant b e same... when will miracle happen? when it really happen mayb is 2 late le ba... hearts change ppl change everyting jus change... wat's e pt of tinkin life is jus e same so sian lei? life change 4 e worst ba... 2 mi...left her words here
