Monday, April 30, 2007 Y 11:55 PM
I'M TIRED AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRAINING SO TIRIN LEI!!!!!!!!!!!!ai yo veri tired lei.. sobz.. noe tat u been readin mi de blog hor.. ai yo wat i write here is wat i feel tat i dun dare 2 tell u in person ma.. sobz is nt tat i'm tryin 2 bad mouth u but...... hard 2 xplain 2 u la.. i mean y cant u 2 b alittle more ti tie lei? sobz.. u r really makin mi lost confidence le la.. y.. y mus u do tis? u noe u r mi de priority but cant u realise tat bein mi de priority is a veri big ting ma.. i put u in front of everyting but u lei.. u mak mi feel tat u tak mi 4 granted lor.. sobz.. aft wat u c here i noe u will b unhappy de.. but i really gt no other means in makin u understand hw i feel le.. tat time when u ask mi 2 tak care of myself u noe i was so damn worried abt u tat i tot smth bad goin 2 happen 2 u lor.. u noe i nearly went crazy ma huh.. i dun wanna lose u.. do u understand hw imp r u 2 mi ant ar.. y u keep makin mi feel tat is mi fault.. hav u ever ask urself hw hav u treat mi.. i dun wanna end tis.. i noe wat u tinkin 2 do already.. sobz.. i jus hope tat u really put in more care 4 mi.. i noe u stress but dere's no reason 4 u 2 drop mi de ar.. u noe u r tat imp 2 mi but y mus u hurt mi over n over agn lei? i dunno.. i really dunno.. hope u understand hw i feel n i hope it will nt cause any side effects lor.. i really kind of miss e old u tat u treat mi so gd in e past.. oni durin e holidaes n wkends den i can get 2 go out wif u but den u r nt free n u oso noe it veri well tat i wan 2 go out wif u de but den lei.. i always get e ans nt free.. i understand tat u r nt free.. i understand 1 ting tat is once tat u r free den u will ask mi out rite.. if nt i will nv even get 2 go out wif u de lor.. sobz.. i really wish tat tat sum dae will cum n we can go out 2gether lor.. dun wanna sae more le if nt ltr will get side effects de which i dun wan n u noe wat side effects i'm tokin abt lor.. misses~*muackz~**miss e old u**oni u n no others*left her words here
